Honestly Healing...or Healing? Honestly?

Hey Beautiful Family! Ya'll I gotta tell you, approaching 30 in 6 days is causing me to really pause in the present each and every moment of the day this week. This is the first time in over a decade that I am able to reminisce as I look back at photos from my childhood and teenage years. God is LITERALLY restoring the joy from my childhood. God has me in another healing process and I am here for it! I feel like a little girl with no problems in the world and I know my Heavenly Father has EVERYTHING in control. I forgot the very joy that I had as a little girl because of becoming dark and numb mentally and emotionally. All the years of confusion, disappointment, and heartache created a heaviness and a hardness in my heart toward living and I just began to exist. I began to just go with the motions and allow situations and circumstances to dictate my identity.

Truthfully, I was living in a false identity. My identity was based in victimhood, violation, abuse, neglect, and so much more that was not the image of God. My vision was vanishing, my dreams were dying, and my purpose was perishing. Eventually nothing mattered anymore - not my hopes, not my wants, not even myself. I started using accomplishments unbeknownst to me to fulfill the desolate and growing emptiness inside of me.

I started at a community college and transferred to a university. I graduated every year consecutively for 6 years Summa Cum Laude with a 4.0 GPA. In a year, I earned my MSW in 2015 and was on my way to an awesome career in social work. Even though I was doing all this, I had no clue what was happening in my life. I worked in the field of helping victims/survivors of human trafficking and pushing social justice issues. I didn’t know, about two years later, my entire life would change. All along, until 2017 I didn’t know I was a victim/survivor of sorts myself - both spiritually and naturally. I also didn’t know I was going to enter into a process that would be so difficult and feel like I was losing EVERYTHING, but also overtime I would see how All things work together for the good...for His purpose (Romans 8:28).

Join me TONIGHT at 8PM EST and ALL WEEK LONG on Facebook (my Fanell Elane page) LIVE to talk about my story and ongoing process. I hope you got something from last night! I enjoyed sharing and interacting with you all. Actually, POST IN THE COMMENTS 1-3 things you got from the first of many Transformation Talks. Thank YOU!

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July 25, 2021, 8:00 PM – July 31, 2021, 8:00 PM EDT | Facebook Page @Fanell Elane

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